Stalling

I knew that you'd get bored with me

I attract the ones that do

So why was I so upset

If that was something that I knew?

I guess I thought that you'd be the one

To prove my theory wrong

That to every one that interests me

I was a short tag along

I'm sorry that I took you're time

I should not have let you stay

But you were just too interesting

To keep you far away

It's nice to know that you chose me

I was the special face in the crowd

Just remember all we had said

As I say goodbye aloud

I'm sorry you don't think its worth it

I didn't make you come

Just know that every time I played it cool

My head was beating like a drum

I'm sorry you got bored with me

But I would have done the same

For you have lived in this crazy life 

And collected all the fame

I was the one doing what she was told

You were the one who screwed it all

I was the one who would rush back to my life

As you sat and tried to stall

Just a reminder

Just a reminder that there is still beauty in the world if you take the time to look!

Wet Eyes

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday to my friend

You mean an awful lot

You are about the only thing
That's kept me in this spot
The world has tried to tear us down
But the two of us are glue
And even if I can't see your face
I've memorized its hue
Now yes you are not the only one
With a birthday on this date
You share it with mister Eminem
And my cat which you could never hate
Happy Birthday my favorite friend
You've been there through it all
And I've have been there every day
Since we met in that lost fall
 I give you on your birthday
A hug that lasts too long
For I have searched far and wide
And in you I do belong
You're birthday is a special thing
For this one the world now gives
You another number to state
How much you chose to live
Happy Birthday to the one
I love to tease all day
And every time I make you laugh
You know what I really say
Happy Birthday Sammychong
I know you hate that name
But every time I call you that
I see you're crazy flame

To float or sink

They say when you start swimming
Some float and others sink
The fact that there's such a difference
Is something that makes me think
How come some people fall right down
While other stay up high
It's like the world just then decides
Whats written in your sky
But even if you stay afloat
There's no way to get down
And even though you start out good
You never reach the ground
So maybe you don't stay afloat
Maybe you only sink
But you have the advantage
For you can swim if you only think
The sinkers see their progress
As they learn to find the way up
But people who are on the top
Can do nothing, for they're stuck
The sinkers see the beauty
Even though for it they work
And the floaters they're already high
But on the surface they must lurk

Oh Curse This

 I'm sorry about this one, this was the only way for me to get all of these thoughts out of my head.......

It's said to me it's in my head

The pain can not exist

For how could anything be real

If it's only you in which it persists

It's said that you need water

Or you need to forget it all

How you have learned to con the world

As you make a graceful fall

My pain, it is not graceful

It is awkward and joy-free

Do I need to leave this town 

Or do I need to leave me?

How come I long for silence

As I lie in pain in bed

How come I can't get any sleep

Oh curse this awful head

My pain is something I try to hide

From you and also myself

But forgetting is impossible

Oh curse this awful health

Mister Misty Eyes

Hello mister misty eyes
It is I, I know you know
You have left me many things
And from them I've learned to grow
When I see you, I see silence

I see the truth behind your blue eyes

Your perfect looking outside

Does nothing to hold back all the lies

Your words are filled with anything

That could mean something to those who hear

But anything you want to say

You're afraid no one holds dear 

So to mister misty eyes

With the silence hidden by the lies

Just know that I know what's happened 

To turn you towards your disguise

Your life is written in a book 

With red marks on every page

And even though they don't see a thing

I've seen what you can do, even in a cage

This world has made you misty

Your eyes were once a light

And now they sit in the very back

Instead of flying like a kite

Now yes, you are still far to loud

But your words are nothing more

Than all you could possibly need

To get to your next score

You once told me, mister misty eyes

That I wasn't apart of the whole scheme

That I was once just another pawn
In the crazy misty stream
You told me that what we had was true
As you left me on that day
But when the world wanted me
It was interesting; what did you say?
"I'm sorry I can't take it"
That made me scream and shout
"I just don't think it's worth it"
Like that wasn't a way out...
You, mister misty eyes
You left me on that day
I remembered oh so many things
As we continued on our ways
I still know of the things you vow
Because you saw your parents fight
And I still know I loved you more
For the truths you told that night
You, mister misty eyes
You left me with no choice
I left and you apologized
But I heard the silence in your voice
The world had turned you misty
The world has turned you blue to grey
Just remember all I have said
In the back of the room today
So goodbye mister misty eyes
I miss you very much
But even if I wanted you
That one can  not be clutched
The one I knew had blue eyes
That sailed with a kite
And all that's left is a boy
With misty eyes that give me a fright
Hello mister misty eyes
Goodbye to the one I knew
You may no longer see the sky

But I remember how you flew

The Rock of Fury

There one was a rock of fury
It never let anything in
But if you manage to get inside
That's where all the danger begins
The cold unwelcome surrounding
Is just a cover for all that's enclosed
It's just like the thorns on the stem
Protect the delicate rose
The fury inside was a terror
Of all the heat and anger contained
Every bit of fire inside
Is the danger our brains have claimed
Inside this rock of fury
That never let anything in
All that managed to get inside
Regret the danger that they see begin

Infatuation

I used to say screw love, but no. Screw infatuation. That's what messes me up. Every time. Love is a delicate thing for me. It's not a rushed process; it should come gradually and stay. Infatuation makes me think, "the world is OK because of them." Love makes me think," the world is showing me that it's OK by letting me be with them." Honestly, I think infatuation is a stronger process. I will never forget my infatuations. I'll never forget how it feels to have your world whirling around you as if you are the sun and everything in your life is on the earth below zooming in circles around you but never having it touch you. I will never forget the alarming feeling that everything is wonderful and infinite and that this is the best you've seen. "But this too shall pass" your brain secretly says while you lay in bed waiting for them to text or call. Infatuation is beautiful. It romanticizes the entire world; it makes the world feel safe. But just as your brain tried to warn you, this too does pass, making your life stop. The swirling earth you have come to watch from afar becomes oh too real as the sun throws you off and forces you back. The infinity is gone and all that is wonderful is gone too. The crazy feeling that the world is OK because of them really screws you up now...   There you are, without them, and the far too short infatuation is over. I don't say screw love. I say screw infatuation for infatuation is what hurts more. Infatuation let's you learn to fly and then lets go in an instant. At least with love, you see the whole world before you fall.