Pains Inside My head

I woke up one day

With pains inside my head

I blamed it on the way I slept

As I got up from my bed

But the same thing happened the next day

And the next day after that 

And all the days after

Until one day I hit a mat

I woke up to the realization 

That what had happened to me then

Was that I had another seizure

And nothing would be the same again

I had tried to warn them

But nothing did come out

And now I'm still complaining 

While people think I pout

 "It's in your head, my darling"

And although that may be true

It doesn't change the fact

That it still hurts to speak to you

I'm hiding all this pain from you

More than you'd ever think

Just look into my teary eyes 

As I look up high and blink

An Introverted Heart

Changing from being an introvert

Is like trying to rewire your head

Forcing yourself to thrive off things

That make your brain feel dead

It's telling yourself to talk some more

When it's the last thing on your mind

It's giving your self poison

And telling yourself you need it to be fine

It's making a new person

From the remnants of the old

And making things you want to leave

Into a makeshift home

Unpack

He sat me in a chair that day
In the corner of the room
I did not know what he'd planned to say
Although he was going to tell me soon
I sat looking in his eyes
With pain and joy and fear
As he told me words that I needed said
But did not want to hear
And hidden in the message
Were words that made me cry
They were the happy sort of tears
But he did not see them pass my eye
And he told me that he knew it
He knew what he had done
He told me the story that I thought I knew
An adventure minus fun
He apologized for hurting me
And said he had seen my look way back
Before I had come to know him
And decided to unpack
He was the first person to mention this to me
My life a year ago
I did not know what to say
About the truth I thought he didn't know
And then he told me that he loved me
I did not say it back
Although that doesn't mean I don't
But I still need to unpack

Open Book

And she woke to realize

She really was an open book

All the chapters she'd tried to hide

Were really screaming "look!"

The secrets she had buried inside

Were released out from herself

All the things she thought were secret

Proved to be showcased on her shelf

The Sun Kissed Girl

She smiled like the sun was hitting her face

But it was shining a tad too bright

She wasn't fully able to embrace the felling

Because it just wasn't quite right

And every thing was tainted orange to her

Like a golden sun kissed glow

And it seemed to make everything a little bit better

But it looks different from what other people know

And she walked to the beat of a different drum

With a different time to step

And it was great to stand out a little

But when others took a stroll, she lept

And she wasn't quite a person

People seemed to function in a different way

She was happy just being her

But she didn't know what to say

But you know, she could still function

It just took a little bit more work

 And she was what no one else could be

So that was her sun kissed perk

A Stormy Migraine Morning

And I woke up buzzing
With so much pain running through my veins
that I could no longer feel
Well, that's not exactly true.
The pain just moved so fast that I was a bumble bee
Somehow buzzing despite the fact that science told me
I could not

And I woke up without sight
With the terrifying feeling
that someone had turned out the lights in my room
but the lights were only out in my head
But I guess this isn't exactly true.
I could see until I stood
Then, things became flashes
Here
There
A reminder of reality
Then nothing

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Save yourself my darling

Just leave me in the past

For the truth is inevitable

We will never last

So run away from me

Go find someone to be with

You and I are old enemies

And I have nothing to give