So We Found Out What Happened

So we found out the truth

And it ripped some to shards

Some are still crying

Others arguing over tools in yards

So we found out what happened

But do not know when

I know the truth

But I'm not telling them

So you tore up the family 

People are crying your name

No one seems to remember

What is real or sane

So you brought up some questions

Did you mean to do this to us?

You're breaking a family,

More than causing a fuss

So you used up five bottles

Of cold medicine to sleep

But your actions that night 

Were much farther deep

So he took the money and ran

You were right about the truth

He wasn't looking for a home

He spent it on his youth

So they went to go finish it up

And your daughter lost her mind

Now they wonder if she's ok

 Or if she's one of your kind

So they finally set a date

And it's messing with my plans

All of the pain that was caused

I place within your hands

So they say this should be sad

But it worked out for us all

I'm not sure if I believe that

After all that I saw

So the kids chose the fire

Your sisters hated that

But now the fire took its toll 

And that is just the fact

So he spoke of you today

That never happened before

It scares me a bit

If he thinks of you more

So I felt when it happened

I knew the exact way

I won't say anything though

I don't want to look insane

So he started playing the guitar

Now I hate that sound

Every time he strums a note

It is grief in form of pounds

So you say green is everywhere

Well guess what? So is blue

But you don't get that do you?

I guess so; you are you

Would that have changed things?

If you only had looked up

To see all the blue above

That held you in its cup

So they hope you had an episode

And that's why you made that choice

But now we will never know

And we'll be haunted by your voice

So we went to the memorial

And many people cried

Your sisters sat in the very back

And your kids, two side by side

So he sang a song for you

They say he sounded like your dad

And he strummed away his grief

Standing on that windy pad

They say that you loved to sing

Well, I love to sing too

I wish we could have met sometime

And I could've seen you anew

So I released a butterfly

And backwards it did fly

In that odd, twisted way

I found a real goodbye

So after, we went to dinner

And the next morning we had brunch

And in the span of a couple hours

I learned quite a bunch

So it was a good time for you to let go

It was a good time for you to leave

But how that leaving came to pass

Now that I can't conceive

I understand that you're schizophrenic

I get that I don't understand

But there was so much more to you

Than the hours that marked that hand

And was it the real you that made that choice

Or was it your counter self

The one who loved to talk to birds

And play with things on a shelf

Tell me now as you lay to rest

Did you really mean to die?

Was this all an accident 

Or was it suicide?