14 Months

This is the last poem I will write

About you and what you've done

I can't take anymore of your texts

And seeing you is no longer fun

I know that it must end like this

Cause you never could let go

It has been 14 months now

And your texts are still a constant flow

I struggle as I write these words

For I wish it not like this to end

But I don't know what else I could do

To have a clear message to send

Every time I hear your name

I feel that I have been stabbed

With the wide, flat side of a textbook

That from me you grabbed

I no longer wonder if we could fix what we had

You broke me and I then broke you

I think that we are just two people who broke

And there's nothing left to do

They say that things that have been broken and repaired

Are the most beautiful they've seen

But if the pieces can't fit just right

There is nothing to gleam

I hope you know that you broke me

I hope that you know that I cried

I stopped having anything to do with you

Because I felt that I had died

But now whenever I think of you

I only see a name

I can't see your face in my mind

And when I think of you my stomach's tame

The emotion from what we had

Is gone and faded away

I have tried to beat around the bush

Of what I have to say

But here it is, I'll say it

Goodbye, I miss you, but

It has been 14 months now

And our tie must finally be cut

Writer of Poems

I don't think I am a poet

I write just to sit still

But even if I am not a poet

I am a writer of poems by will 

Problems

I came up with another problem today

What am I going to do with the rest of my life

And I decided that instead of taking about it

I think I'd rather write

40 Hours A Week

I'm fine until I leave that place

And then all I do is cry

I sit and talk to my friends all day

But when I leave I don't know why

How come when I leave I want to drown

With the sorrows of the day

And how come I'm fine when I'm alone

And nothing I'm forced to say

I'd rather live my life online

Than be with people 40 hours a week

I'd rather be without any person

Than to be close and show that I'm weak

It's like a curse every time I'm there

When I'm there I swear I am fine

But when I go and sit snugly at home 

I find I can do nothing but whine

The people forget me 

The words that I say

 They forget what they told me

And then go away

They leave me and run off

To others they go 

For then I am lonely

 And no one can I show

I pick up my face

And pretend to be fine

Although does it matter?

Who cares of this mind?

This wicked old place 

Is a curse to my head

It puts all the pressure on people instead

Instead of my patience

My happiness, my word

The people are making me

An emotional soup they can stir

My emotions are fine 

Until the end of the shift 

And then I repeat all that happened

And my safety, it drifts 

And now I am back

I am back here again

Of course I am happy

Why the look my dear friend?

Stop

You need to stop texting

I'm not coming back

Your texts are just sitting

And they feel like an attack

You just say hello to me

But I crumble up inside

For every time I think of you

I feel the tears that I once cried

You are not alone now

 Although I know you feel you are

This is not the end of the world

Even if we ended with a scar

I've answered far too many texts

And you've sent more than I've received

For the two of us are not real

Despite what you've believed

So hello and, well, goodbye
I've texted back
And now I sigh
I can't do this
I can't take you back
You need to stop
And you need to pack
Pack your things
Find someone new
Go be yourself
I'm not who you knew

Unsorted Thoughts

My head is a collection of unsorted thoughts

They fight me each day

And by the time I go sit down

I don't know what to say

The words, they are colors

The faces are words

The numbers and lines,

How come they are blurred?

My thoughts are unsorted

All fighting to leave

And what does come out

Is it something I'll grieve?

These unsorted thoughts

They rule my mind

I put them in order

But they've become entwined

I Want You To Know

I want you to know that I'm sorry

I know that I caused you pain

At one point I thought we could go back

But I see things will never be the same

I left you in broken pieces

Your family, they picked up the shards

And now they stab me with looks in their eye

Across our almost touching yards

The two of us are intertwined

Our friends, our days, our lives

This is just a friendly reminder

As you attempt to cut us apart with knives

I want you to know that it was you

The two of us just weren't the same

I would rather go swim in the pool

Than hang off the side to talk about your game

I want you to know that it was for you

I saw that we could never work out

So sorry for how I left you

But I don't have a single doubt

You told me you'll stay here forever

And I told that I can not stay

For I want to go explore the world

And I want to go every day

When I said this you smiled right through me

Like the words I had said were no more

For they didn't match up with what you believed

So the memory of it wouldn't store

I want you to know I went to Walmart

And I stood in the movie isle

I remembered all the movies that we were built upon

And I placed them into a pile

But then I put the pile back

For the two of us are no more

When I walked away from Walmart

I couldn't help but leave my miss for you in the store

I want you to know I unfriended you

So I wouldn't know what you did

And I won't think that I was missing much

And you would not be on my grid

I want you to know that I'm gone

I'm tired of this constant game

The one where we pass each other and pretend we aren't there

I'm tired of you just the same

I want you to know that I'm sorry

I know that I caused you pain

I know that you won't hear this

So I won't say it again

I want you to know to move on

I have and so should you

I've told you that I'm sorry

And now there's nothing left to do

What She Needed

She parted her hair and put the top of it up
So it lay flat against her spine
She smiled and laughed at all the right jokes
Just to prove that she was fine
She tore the world apart and built it back up
So it was exactly what she wanted to see
But as soon as she took a step back and let herself rest
She could not simply be
For she put on a show for the whole world to view
And it tore her up inside
She busied herself with anything that she could
Like mask she could use to hide
She was not this perfect girl that could do anything
She was a broken, tired thing
But she won't tell anyone the truth of her soul
Or the fact that she cannot sing
She's tearing herself up with every breath that she takes
And struggles to keep her face
Maybe she needs a sign to change all her ways
Or maybe just a truthful embrace